My Feelings, exactly

I'm totally in love with this song from Pascale Picard... and it totally is how I've been feeling lately.



How do I feel? Alone and lousy
And I may seem selfish but I need
A little break on my own, can’t you see
I’m just tired of being phony

So for a while stop calling me, my friend
I’ve spent 20 years forgetting myself and then
What else? Am I just incomplete?
Sometimes I’m so sick of being sweet

I’m sure far away from me
You’d feel better than down here
So why don’t you take a look at this path
And then you’ll see…‘Cause I’ll never be a bit far away from me

So here I’m again, in front of the TV
Watching lives more exciting than mine
Because there’s always just too many good reasons
Too many reasons to be sad

I’m sure far away from me
You’d feel better than down here
So why don’t you take a look at this path
And then we’ll see…‘Cause I’ll never be a bit far away from me

Why don’t you try to keep your distance?
That’s so weird to try to listen to myself
As long as I won’t be, for a while, far away from me

I know I may be rude
But failing is always cruel
Don’t wait for me to stand next to you
I won’t be here for a while
I won’t be here for a while

Nothing more than this silent scream inside
So what, do you wanna hear about self-control?
Talking a little louder than usual
Freeing myself from what I just don’t wanna hold

I’m sure far away from me
You’d feel better than down here
So why don’t you take a look at this path
And then we’ll see…‘Cause I’ll never be a bit far away from me

Why don’t you try to keep your distance?
That’s so weird to try to listen to myself
As long as I won’t be, for a while, far away from me
I know I may be rude
But failing is always cruel
Don’t wait for me to stand next to you

I won’t be here for a while
I won’t be here for a while
I won’t be here for a while
I won’t be here for a while

Anyways, I don't know why I've been feeling so low lately... maybe it's the fall setting in or the fact that I started working again and have no time for myself, or DH's company that is on the verge of closing. But I hope some better days are ahead.

But even though I'm feeling blue, I've invited friends over for dinner tonight. We'll be 6 adults and 7 kids. And here's my menu :

• Veggies and dip with sausages in bacon for the kiddos
• French onion soup
• Beef Wellingtons with Bearnaise sauce
• Creamy au gratin potatoes
• Salad
• Asparagus with vinaigrette
• Crunchy caramel apple pie with homemade caramel ice cream

So with all the cleaning beforehand, cooking and baking and cleaning after... it should keep me from feeling so low :(